Well folks...it's not lookin' good. My best friend left & I just continued eating like she was still here. Didn't exercise...nothing! But, I'm hopeful at this....I'm starting back up on my eating program at LA Weight Loss next week. I had amazing success when I did it right before getting pregnant with Levi - despite the terrible 20/20 interview about the program. I still have money invested there, so they are holding my plan for me.
So, speaking of eating....I started my son Levi on cereal today! I can't believe it's already that time. He's almost 4 1/2 months & he's a bigger boy & I'm wondering if he just needs a bit more. Plus, I knew that in order to go work on my weight, I had to not be Levi's sole form of nourishment. LA Weight Loss rules.
Well, Levi didn't really like the cereal...shocker! None of my boys took to it real well at first. Do any babies really? But, last night I pulled up the high chair from our basement storage and a few other "older" toys for Levi & I just can't believe how quickly the time is going. Today I put away a huge tub full of baby clothes that don't fit him anymore and I find that life is passing by without my having time to barely keep up with it. On one hand I'm saddened at my boys growing up & on the other hand I'm so proud of the little boys they are becoming.
So there you have it...some random thoughts today. Nothing deep or exciting, but I've been thinking about how quickly life is passing & I'm still at the weight that I am. It's time for a good kick in the rear! I'm tired of being over-weight and it's my own fault for where I'm at today. BUT, with the Lord's help...I try again-everyday.
Monday, October 8, 2007
Saturday, October 6, 2007
The Ugly Sin Nature
I sat earlier this morning listening to my older son throw a huge fit in his room. I think his behavior would be extremely embarrassing if I was out in public. I think that he should learn self-control & pull himself together. He slams a door...throws a toy...cries. Oh my goodness! (A small disclaimer - this is not the norm.. but every once in awhile he just breaks down - for those of you who have kids, you understand.) Of course we don't tolerate this in our home & it's definitely something we work on - always seeking the Lord for wisdom in this area.
I found myself the other day talking with Caleb about his whining & frustrated that he wouldn't stop. I proceeded to go lean over the kitchen sink in frustration only to hear that still small voice in my head that said, "Are you whining?" You know, those moments when you know it's the Lord sweetly expressing something to your heart? I found myself baffled by the ironic situation I was in. I was training my child about self-control & how to maintain his composure while using "his words" and I in that very next moment turn around & find myself losing it on the inside....an internal fit. And thus rises the ugly sin nature.
We've all been there as adults. At our wits end about something or another. I find I personally throw my fits, just in a different form than my children do. They do it loudly because they know no other way to control or express themselves; thus the training involved. I know better, so I hide it...I do it on the inside. I whine & throw my fit knowing that no one will see it, but my Heavenly Father does & so sweetly asks me, "Are you whining?" And I sit back & think...I'm not much different.
When I find myself complaining that I have to pick up after everyone constantly - I thank the Lord that He provided me with a beautiful home. When I've lost count at the times I've picked up cars or trucks in one day - I thank the Lord that He's provided us with money to buy things for our children. When I complain that I'm cleaning the kitchen yet once again & making breakfast, lunch, dinner, & snacks - I thank the Lord that He's given us food on our table for nourishment. When I'm so tired of the never ending loads of laundry - I thank the Lord for the clothes He's provided for us & the fabulous machines to wash them in. When I'm so tired of the never ending of everything - I thank the Lord for the life He's given me & the privileged I have to stay home and make this a loving environment for my family.
When I find myself whining & complaining - I'm thankful that I have a God who sweetly whispers in my ear, "Are you whining?"..."You know I always love you, so come to me anytime." And I find His grace & love saturating my heart yet again. When I find myself dealing with my Caleb, who's having a "moment" - I thank God that He gave me such a precious gift...3 of them to be exact.
I found myself the other day talking with Caleb about his whining & frustrated that he wouldn't stop. I proceeded to go lean over the kitchen sink in frustration only to hear that still small voice in my head that said, "Are you whining?" You know, those moments when you know it's the Lord sweetly expressing something to your heart? I found myself baffled by the ironic situation I was in. I was training my child about self-control & how to maintain his composure while using "his words" and I in that very next moment turn around & find myself losing it on the inside....an internal fit. And thus rises the ugly sin nature.
We've all been there as adults. At our wits end about something or another. I find I personally throw my fits, just in a different form than my children do. They do it loudly because they know no other way to control or express themselves; thus the training involved. I know better, so I hide it...I do it on the inside. I whine & throw my fit knowing that no one will see it, but my Heavenly Father does & so sweetly asks me, "Are you whining?" And I sit back & think...I'm not much different.
When I find myself complaining that I have to pick up after everyone constantly - I thank the Lord that He provided me with a beautiful home. When I've lost count at the times I've picked up cars or trucks in one day - I thank the Lord that He's provided us with money to buy things for our children. When I complain that I'm cleaning the kitchen yet once again & making breakfast, lunch, dinner, & snacks - I thank the Lord that He's given us food on our table for nourishment. When I'm so tired of the never ending loads of laundry - I thank the Lord for the clothes He's provided for us & the fabulous machines to wash them in. When I'm so tired of the never ending of everything - I thank the Lord for the life He's given me & the privileged I have to stay home and make this a loving environment for my family.
When I find myself whining & complaining - I'm thankful that I have a God who sweetly whispers in my ear, "Are you whining?"..."You know I always love you, so come to me anytime." And I find His grace & love saturating my heart yet again. When I find myself dealing with my Caleb, who's having a "moment" - I thank God that He gave me such a precious gift...3 of them to be exact.
Thursday, October 4, 2007
Getting tough!
I'm the first born child in my family & with that comes my stronger personality type. It comes with the territory.....yet in that there's also this worry about hurting some-one's feelings or offending. I'm finding though that as I get older I am able to speak my mind a bit more & not worry so much about offending. Of course I do it respectfully & out of kindness, but you know...not letting people run over you. I not only think that age has helped this progression, but the fact that I now have children & being able to speak up for them because they really can't right now. "Mama Bear" rises up every now & again at others not thinking my children are amazing humans & yet my boys definitely have their "work in progress" challenges.
I've decided at this point I believe I have 2 first-born children. Caleb, my oldest has always been a bigger boy. He's very tall for his age & was always in the 90% on all the charts. Benjamin on the other hand has always been smaller. Barely on the charts for weight & just has never been a huge eater....must get that from Dad, because goodness knows I love to eat! :-) But, it amazes me how Benjamin can carry his own with Caleb & at times it's Benjamin who comes out on top. I do though think it's Caleb trying to be obedient to us in not hitting his brother & sometimes it appears that Ben is winning, when in fact Caleb is just obeying. But, at times I stand back & watch as they put their arms around each other & this glimmer of brotherly love appears & I treasure that in my heart.
Then we had Levi....as far as I can tell (not sure you can tell tons at 4mo.) he's going to be my mellow boy yet resemble Caleb in size. Eats well, sleeps well, gets 2 teeth without my even realizing it...you know, an extremely easy baby. Thank you Lord!! So, in getting back to my beginning opening of "speaking my mind"...yesterday was Levi's 4 month doctor's appointment. And we love our pediatrician, but they have a new nurse there & she's really cold. Caleb asks what she's doing & she says, "It's a vaccination ." Like a 4 1/2 yr old understands that! Come on lady! So, I proceed to explain it to him. We've made a decision to not give our children the Hepatitis B shot until they get older & this nurse proceeded to tell me I couldn't do that in which I proceeded to inform her..."oh yes you can...I have 2 older boys to prove it!" I walked out of there proud of myself. Not that I was rude, because I wasn't but that I spoke my mind & didn't just go with things at the risk of offending. So, I must be getting older...maybe it comes with being in my 30's or maybe it comes with the Mama territory - but what I do know is that I'm ready to take on this world for the sake of loving my boys.
Oh, by the way...I was RIGHT about the shots...ha, ha, nurse...you were wrong! - Goodness, did I type that out loud?! HA! And Levi weighs 15lbs 12.5oz & is 26in. long!
I've decided at this point I believe I have 2 first-born children. Caleb, my oldest has always been a bigger boy. He's very tall for his age & was always in the 90% on all the charts. Benjamin on the other hand has always been smaller. Barely on the charts for weight & just has never been a huge eater....must get that from Dad, because goodness knows I love to eat! :-) But, it amazes me how Benjamin can carry his own with Caleb & at times it's Benjamin who comes out on top. I do though think it's Caleb trying to be obedient to us in not hitting his brother & sometimes it appears that Ben is winning, when in fact Caleb is just obeying. But, at times I stand back & watch as they put their arms around each other & this glimmer of brotherly love appears & I treasure that in my heart.
Then we had Levi....as far as I can tell (not sure you can tell tons at 4mo.) he's going to be my mellow boy yet resemble Caleb in size. Eats well, sleeps well, gets 2 teeth without my even realizing it...you know, an extremely easy baby. Thank you Lord!! So, in getting back to my beginning opening of "speaking my mind"...yesterday was Levi's 4 month doctor's appointment. And we love our pediatrician, but they have a new nurse there & she's really cold. Caleb asks what she's doing & she says, "It's a vaccination ." Like a 4 1/2 yr old understands that! Come on lady! So, I proceed to explain it to him. We've made a decision to not give our children the Hepatitis B shot until they get older & this nurse proceeded to tell me I couldn't do that in which I proceeded to inform her..."oh yes you can...I have 2 older boys to prove it!" I walked out of there proud of myself. Not that I was rude, because I wasn't but that I spoke my mind & didn't just go with things at the risk of offending. So, I must be getting older...maybe it comes with being in my 30's or maybe it comes with the Mama territory - but what I do know is that I'm ready to take on this world for the sake of loving my boys.
Oh, by the way...I was RIGHT about the shots...ha, ha, nurse...you were wrong! - Goodness, did I type that out loud?! HA! And Levi weighs 15lbs 12.5oz & is 26in. long!
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