Friday, September 20, 2013

Kissing His face....

One year ago today it happened.  Part of my heart has disappeared for just a bit. It will be reconnected on that  day we meet again in Heaven.  My Grandma.....Heaven is rejoicing as it's her 1 year birthday with her Jesus.

 The seasons continue to change....we all get journeys on.  There is part of my heart that lies empty, trying to journey on -  yet missing.  Reaching Heaven is ultimately the beginning.  The beginning of forever...eternity with the Lord.  My Grandma's earthly body is gone yet her memory is everywhere.  For briefly she was just on vacation in my mind.  The reality of her being gone has sunk in more deeply and I realize how deeply impacted she was in every area of our family....a spiritual giant. It's different now. Who fills that role?  Who can.  I often stop and wish I would have taken one more minute to love on more conversation on the more meal together...listened a bit closer.

So, we move on and a year of life passes by.  We don't forget her we just miss her.  We miss who she represented and was to us in our family and it finally sets deep in our hearts that we will never see her again on this earth...never.  We continue to live on in the legacy and faith she paved for us.  Her life was lived to the brim and we honor her by remembering the words of life she spoke to us so often.  Her encouragement to us of who she wanted us to be in Him.  Her tenderness of joy and life as celebrated as unto the King!  I I often wish I could visit with her for just a moment.  Asking her of what it's like to be with Jesus.  What it's like to walk on streets of gold.  What it is like to kiss God's face.

A year ago I lost my precious Grandma.  I wouldn't wish for her to be any other place though but with her Savior.  We miss her...I miss her, but with that emptiness of heart comes a joy in the mourning that days will come and go....we will all get will journey on and with each passing day we too are closer to seeing our King and worshiping along side her - going Home.