A Father Moment...

My 4 year old son was drowning at the pool this past weekend. To this day the image still haunts my mind as I see my little man gasping for air and struggling to come to the surface. While holding on to my younger 2 year old son, I turned for one moment and my 4 year old slipped from the step he had been standing on, to the deep end that caused him to fight for life. Since I was trying to keep my 2 year old above water I screamed out my husband's name & in a split second he was there, pulling Benjamin out of the water. Funny how the life guard was just sitting calmly along with another grown man right in the hot tub. Come on people, my son was drowning!!

As I've been haunted by this image for days now and I realize how the Lord protects our little ones and watches over them completely & I'm SO thankful. I sometimes feel like I'm drowning in the responsibilities and things of this life. I can't get above water & I'm grasping for air. In our drowning the Lord is desiring for us to yell for Him to save us. For others might be sitting around and watching us because ultimately the Lord is the only one who can be our Savior. The Lord desires for us to call on His name in HELP! I realized that Benjamin's Daddy came to the rescue and grabbed him from a moment of panic. I yelled my husband's name & he was there, without hesitation. That's what the Lord wants to be for us. We might be drowning in this life, but the Lord is ready to grab us from the waters that at times can overtake us. It's ONLY the Heavenly Father that can save & rescue us. He wants to help us in every situation of life.

For I yelled out my husband's name to save my son while I was unable...and Benjamin's father saved him. For those of us who call out on the name of Jesus and "scream" for his help, He will save us.

Romans 10:13
"For everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved."

Happy Mother's Day...

The end is in sight...and I can't believe it. My oldest son is almost a first grader. Where did his first school year go as it was flying by! I listen to him tell me all the things he's learning at school and where I've gone wrong in my own opinions about things (hmm...who's the adult here?). I listen as he quotes me long scripture verses he's had to learn and wonder..when's the last time I memorized a verse. I've watched him make new friends & praise God at the love he has for his new buddies. I've marveled at his mind and what a sponge it is as he's learning more than I ever thought possible at this age....And pride indwells within.

I think of my children all the time, but Mother's Day is approaching this weekend and I think even more about them and the honor I feel in being their Mama. I marvel as it seems like just yesterday that I started this journey with having my precious children - training & teaching them. But what even touches me deeper is the fact of how much they've taught ME. As mom's we know that when you have children life no longer becomes about you - for you lay your life aside for the love of a little heart. But in that laying aside of myself I find that an immense part of me grows - so self dies and eternal value flourishes. And all through my little loves....

So, I watch as my children grow and change & marvel at the Lord's faithfulness in my life. Being eternally grateful that I'm a Mama, for I was loved by one who put self aside for me and now it's my turn to be a model of her undying love for me.

Happy Mother's Day to all you Mamas out there!